Easily Led or Motivated?

OK so yesterday I was quitting uni for reasons I blogged about, along with other reasons!

Today I'm still a student continuing on my course. My lecturer tracked me down and spoke to me over the phone about why I was leaving. I explained everything to him and he seemed to think I wasn't as far behind with my work as I thought I was. He literally begged me to come back, mainly because I will have been throwing away the last 18 months of work. I know for sure his real reasons...as I discussed yesterday regarding the financial gain for the establishment, so why was I so easy to agree to continue??

I did work hard last year and loved it all...this year has been a struggle along with issues at home but I seriously thought II'd already thrown it away. Am I easily led or seriously committed to the pleasure that is photography?

Do people really mean it when they say that you're a good photographer? Or say things you want to hear? My lecturer is constantly telling me this, but is his hidden agenda to keep me to guarantee funding from external sources? The only thing I know is how having a camera in my hand makes me feel, and that is what motivates me to carry on. Does the qualification matter? Not to me, but I'm too self-competitive that I need to prove that I can do it!

For now readers, I'm still a student but with my turbulent personality, watch this space!

First Blog - Studies and Qualifications

I'm quitting uni today. Not that I hate the course, although I'm very close to hating it...but because I really dont know if i'm coming or going with it all. I've sat so many times with my lecturer over the past months and I'm still no more motivated about it all. There are more than this reason as to why I'm quitting but this blog post highlights just one reason.

Gone are the days of logic and understanding! We, as students, are merely there for these establishments to make money. We are their short term investment! As much as they go on and on about equal opportunities, it soon becomes apparent that there's no such thing! They basically allow everyone the same opportunies to make more money! The more people on a course, the more money they'll make...regardless of people's abilities...because, as I found out last year, the ones who cannot do the course, get more help than those that can....why?? So they pass and therefore generate a payment! This is all well and good, and means more people gain qualifications, but what is this worth nowadays? If someone isn't able to pass on their own merits, how is it possible to award them a qualification to say that they are?

This has all proved itself this week when my mother fell sick, and after seeing four doctors, the fifth one finally diagnosed the problem! These people have been offered a job based on their qualifications and merits.

So, having seen for myself how people pass these degree courses, I am no longer so proud of how well I did at the end of my first year, and more de-motivated to carry on.

As much as I love photography and everything that goes with it; the subject; the art and the history, I don't feel that anything I've achieved or learnt so far couldn't have been achieved at home and on my own. I shall continue to use my camera and continue with my keen interest in the subject as a whole, but for now, a Honors degree is at the bottom of my priorities list.